This may never start; tearing out my heart.

Kay so I haven't posted a blog in like forever.
I've been way busy between my tutors and such.

Well,Kenny is talking to me again.
We're friends?..
I don't even freakin' know.

He said that most fucked up shit to me yesterday.
We were talking about him and Tainisha (they broke up by the way)
And he was like "I feel worse about what happened between you and me, I think it could've been avoided."
Me: "Yeah"
Him:"But, I'm talking to this other girl now, and it would be fucked up to ask you out and then if she wants to go out with me I would have to dump you.. and I wouldn't wanna have to do that."

....
Thats just fucking great.
He would choose some chick he just met over me.
You don't say that shit.
Think it?... sure.. whatever.
But seriously?.. are you a dumbass?!

ERGH!!!
So, he wants to hang out saturday?
Er maybe today.
Cuz I'm hanging out with Steph today and we might go down to Hamden.

Bad idea?
Most likely.
Am I still going to do it.?

...
Der.

I'm madly in love with this guy.
Like you have no idea.

So we talked on the phone for 2 hours yesterday.
He made me laugh and smile.. and it was like we were going back out again.
I loved it.
But... it almost made me cry..
Just cuz the fact that we're not going out..
It hurts..
Badly.

I know that he still has feelings for me..
and still cares about me to some degree.
But... eh...

Well, I gotta go to the school now.
Have to go be tutored in history.
Fucking funn!
*rolls eyes*

Buh~Byes<3!